Was it the outing this morning to the Gardens? Larry is unable to talk much because he feels it worsens the vomiting issues. Is he thinking too much and causing anxiety for himself? Does it really matter if he waits too long before eating?
This was his longest run of vomiting yet. Twelve hours. From 6pm until 6am. Every 15-30 minutes. Neither of us can understand where it is all coming from. He eats so sparingly.
We will test again today. This time making sure he eats a very small portion every 2 hours to see if it will help. He is scheduled for a hydration and blood work this afternoon. I will also ask for an IV of anti-nausea meds again. He(we) are completely drained and saddened that his body is doing this to him.
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
THE WATERFALL
I struggle with how much I should share with everyone. Sometimes too much information is not wanted. This was one of those times. I decided I would share this because it gives you an insight as to what we are dealing with. It also lets you know a little more about our relationship and how families can create beautiful memories during the simplest of times.
Larry wanted to visit one of our favorite places, The Chicago Botanical Gardens, on Labor Day morning. He feels his best in early morning but I really did not think it was the best choice. We usually do not go there on holidays because of the crowds. I could not change his mind to somewhere closer, so we went. It never entered my mind that he had an agenda.
We have many special places at the Gardens. One of our long time favorites is the Waterfall Garden. At the very top the pool of water is peaceful. We have had good times, with and without our children, having leaf races. Sometimes our leaves would never reach the first waterfall and just swirl around in the calm water. Many times it would slowly move around the outer edges of the pool before it made its descent. Other times they would go straight to the waterfall and plunge downward. Fun memories.
When we arrived at our spot, Larry told me this is the place that he wants us to put some of his ashes. I did not see this coming. My whole body reacted at first by stiffening with watery eyes. After catching my breath I then realized that this was actually a perfect place. My thoughts wandered to the leaves and our races. They could be a symbolism for life, personalities, even end of life journeys. Yes, it is the perfect place.
Larry wanted to visit one of our favorite places, The Chicago Botanical Gardens, on Labor Day morning. He feels his best in early morning but I really did not think it was the best choice. We usually do not go there on holidays because of the crowds. I could not change his mind to somewhere closer, so we went. It never entered my mind that he had an agenda.
We have many special places at the Gardens. One of our long time favorites is the Waterfall Garden. At the very top the pool of water is peaceful. We have had good times, with and without our children, having leaf races. Sometimes our leaves would never reach the first waterfall and just swirl around in the calm water. Many times it would slowly move around the outer edges of the pool before it made its descent. Other times they would go straight to the waterfall and plunge downward. Fun memories.
When we arrived at our spot, Larry told me this is the place that he wants us to put some of his ashes. I did not see this coming. My whole body reacted at first by stiffening with watery eyes. After catching my breath I then realized that this was actually a perfect place. My thoughts wandered to the leaves and our races. They could be a symbolism for life, personalities, even end of life journeys. Yes, it is the perfect place.
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