Rigors Attack@ 1am followed by fever that I could not get down. Tylenol and ice, an hour later his fever was 104.5. With Larry's permission back to the Hospital ER.
I will not let them release him until they find the cause of this infection. Obviously the antibiotics he has had since Tuesday are not helping. We are both so exhausted and scared. I asked the ER Dr to give him something so he can sleep. The Dr sent me home so I could get a few hours. My mind is in overdrive and I cannot even lay down.
The hospital called me a half hour after I finally got to sleep to report that his fever was gone. I am so glad but how can it spike like that then be normal 4 hrs later? Maybe I should have waited it out but that high temp was scary. My mind is continually full of questions and having to make decisions while in a state of unsure.
Larry is part of my heart and soul. I will continue to support him and be his advocate in every way possible.
To those of you who tell me how strong I am, I am not. I am just a wife who is doing everything I can to help her husband.
Don't second guess your decisions. All you can do is the very best you can do at any point in time. You have been presented with an incredible series of challenges and with Larry being the subject of it all, he is not in a good position to help with the decision-making. It is so very difficult to weigh the facts and decide the next step when you are terrified, and no one could do better than you are. Larry is lucky to have a partner who is so capable; I have had to make some decisions under similar circumstances, it is lonely and frightening. And again, absolutely NO ONE could do better than you are doing. You make every decision out of love. It doesn't get better than than.
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