The Start of Our Nightmare

STAGE 4 PANCREATIC CANCER-

I am starting this blog because I need to share. I am not looking for sympathy or understanding. I do not believe anyone can understand unless they have lived through someone they love being diagnosed with a cancer that comes with the word Terminal. I believe in prayer and as of yet have not been able to pray. So I welcome prayers from anyone and every religious background.

If Larry was writing this it would probably be statistical information with a lot of humor. He tends to hold his emotions inside. I, however, do not. So a warning that my emotions are raw and can go almost anywhere.

I know very little about Pancreatic Cancer. Yet I will once again become educated about a disease and be in the midst of the medical community. Another set of Doctors and Nurses that I will depend on. I feel my life has been centered around Doctors, Nurses and Hospitals. The list of Doctors I’ve dealt with has now become much too long. Most have been wonderful and I am thankful everyday that I live in a city that has some of the best.

HOPE. I hope this blog answers all questions my friends and family have and keeps everyone updated. I hope to share information with others who may find themselves in the same hell as we are, dealing with a diagnosis of Stage IV Pancreatic Cancer. I hope to educate people about this disease that robs people of their futures.  That is robbing Larry of his future and our future together as a married couple. I hope for a miracle. I hope.